Negativity

Life felt meaningless,
Negativity overshadowed positivity,
The endless battle in the mind,
Overwhelming, suffocating,
How long has it been going?

No passion for what I’m learning,
Complicated theories,
Supposedly enlightening,
Poses more enquiries instead,
More confusion and weird thought instilled,
How fake the world is..
How it seems like a setting…
No escape from the designated route,
Its all a discourse..
What is real?

Wish I could replace it with notes,
Arranged on the staff,
Free to leap,
Guided by the spirit,
Channeled by my muses,
Something which could be sounded,
Formed into easing melody,
Therapeutic waves to the brain,
Brings out the light from the soul..

Anything but those philosophies,
Written by problematic souls,
Quoted by insane murderers,
Trying so hard to define..
How human reality works..
How everything is merely representations..
Material based and so forth..