Words To Heighten My Spirits

Bend like a weed in the sandstorm,
Still standing strong when it's all over,
Be like a Seed in its dormant form
Bloom again in spring when winter is over,
That's how you'll survive in this world today..

Let the fire within us remain burning
No matter how anyone try to snuff it
Keep the wheel of dreams within us turning,
No matter how anyone try to stop it
That's how you'll survive in this world

(Written on July 4th 2003)

**Tribute to those teenage years where people tries to wipe away your dreams and hopes
**Those are the people who do not dare to cross the line in front of them
**They are the ones who made everything seems impossible and down to people who dares to dream big by making ridiculous jokes

**Dreams are those unconscious desires that keeps us alive and living besides love
**Dream big and dare to challenge the society's perception
**All reality are constructed socially and culturally
**Why don't you construct your own as long as it is ethical and harm none?
**Say 'Yes' to every 'No'**
**I am really thankful for those who believes in me
**I was an introvert 14 years ago, and yesterday I was labelled an extrovert
**It's really a result for my aim to be a better person every year

The Purple Night Sky

Tonight I gaze upon heaven,
Filled with millions of twinkling pearls,
Patched on a indigo blanket,
A mixture of purple and blue coloured sky,
A reflection from the neon city lights,
The brightest of all is the waxing Moon,
It will be full in just a week,
This marks the second Full Moon in July 2004,
More than often known as the Blue Moon,
A rare yet auspicious day.

The sky back in my home is black,
Filled with millions of twinkling diamonds,
Sometimes it turns orange and blue,
when it is nearly dusk,
Those precious diamonds began to look faint,
Awaiting for the rise of The Yellow One.

Perseids shower would be a gem this year,
Visible on Aug 12th at 2am in my motherland,
I called it the God's and Goddess's fireworks,
A night light display where no other could be matched,
I wonder if I could witness it this year,
In the polluted and bright Sunway City,
It would be a different experience that night,
For it would be displayed on a purple night sky,

I have always watched it on a black backdrop,
Till the very last spot on the sky is covered with clouds,
This marks the end of the spectacular night show,
When the clouds emerges..
And dusk is nearing.

Am i a Psychic?

Since secondary school, i believe my senses on whether someone liked me or liked another are very real.Sounds like i have an inflated ego? HEll no!. For all i know, most of my predictions or feel are true. My very recent prediction was verified and proven true. The time that i slipped is when i couldn't draw a line between my emotion and what is believed to be the truth. When i refuse to believe that something, my visions are blurred. Am i an empath?

Another incident would be in Penang. Lorraine, Wendy and i were supposed to meet Lorraine's friend. I have never met her before nor has she described her to me. While i was walking down the escalator, i gaze across and saw a couple.I felt that they are the one that i was suppose to meet. I told Lorraine, 'i think i saw your friend. Does she has long hair, very thin?'. She said yes and how do you know. I went on describing that the gal wore white and she came with her boyfriend. It ended up to be way true. Maybe i am just getting good at reading signs or something. This refers to another incident in TAiping. We were looking for MPT kamunting. When i passed a building, i told my mum i thought i saw it. Then she refuses to believe and went round and round. LAter, Su Ann's ah boy callled and he describe the building because he is there already. It matches my prediction. Is it just pure coincidence? My best 6th sense are seeing who fancy who sometimes.

I felt that my ESP ability might have improved a tiny bit. It's just great! I have always wanted to be psychic. I guess what the books says are true after all. Everyone is PSYCHIC!

My Love Fate

Things happen for a reason i believe, what a 'cliche' phrase i know. How would you feel if someone you like falls for your good buddy? How would you see a future in love anymore if this type of episode begins to happens like a neverending falling domino? One after another of my dreamy fantasies falls to another person's hands which shares their world with me.Someone that i truly valued and treasured their friendship.I am just speechless. Am i suppose to be sad or happy? The best part is my buddy happens to have a mutual feeling with him. I feel uncomfortable if the situation is reversed and vice versa.As these episodes happens to often, i feel that i am beginning to lose faith in falling for anyone at all.My current self is a walking zombie with a waveless heart. Cold in the core with a slight warmth.I still have compassion, kindness and love. The cold bit in the core belongs to my faith in love and the 'soul mate' theory.

People tell me that ya have to be selfish in a love game. There will only be a winner and a loser. HOwever, i can't bring myself to the point of losing a friend. I rather see them happy with the one i loved. Or perhaps thought i loved.I sincerely give them my full blessing. As time goes by since my first crush, i began to adapt. I wished for happiness and peace for myself and the world for my every birthday since then.I think the god and goddess showed some mercy for my Self. THey showered me with happiness, i could feel it....it's true...coz i couldn't describe what i am happy for sometimes..it's just there.Within me.

Waveless HEart

My Nights are long,
I can't wait for Morning to come,
My mind would not rest..
Despite my body is calling for it,
I feel like I'm living in a bubble,

My heart is contented,
I feel peaceful,
but something still don't feel right
I do not have a feeling, i am like a living zombie..

There is no hate, no love but negative peace,
A big cloud up my head,
I couldn't remember yesterday,
My memory of things is failing me,
what's happening dear god?
Am I under a spell?
I fear I will not remember who am I tomorrow

We Are Versions ( March 30th 2004)

Free the soul within me,
Break the barrier in me,
Be reckless, be irresponsible,
just for one day...

Tired of boundaries,
Tired of limitation,
I want to seep out of the sealed glass bottle,
Disperse slowly into the air,
As free as air molecules,
Floats into the infinity of space,
We are made out of nothing,
Everything is just a...
Version of Truth..
Nothing is real..
It's all a Representation of things around us...